returning from bali full of affection for beng ...

m so affected tat i can't communicate wif him
m so affected when i know beng din bother to look at our blog
m so affected wondering if it is me or him

conclusion ... 1 mth cooling off time for myself.
i still think tat he will almost never visit this blog

was so looking forward to spend e nite wif Beng b4 i go off to Bali
end up .. coz of his mum, he goes home

after a while i think think .. y din i juz go back wif him ... haiz

as my love for beng beng grow little by little

beng beng's patient for me decrease little by little

3rd Movie

In the highly-anticipated "Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen," debuting June 24, 2009, Sam Witwicky (Shia LaBeouf) again joins with the Autobots against their sworn enemies, the Decepticons. Michael Bay directs from a screenplay by Ehren Kruger & Roberto Orci & Alex Kurtzman.

2nd Movie

Based on a chilling true story, THE HAUNTING IN CONNECTICUT charts one family's terrifying, real-life encounter with the dark forces of the supernatural. When the Campbell family moves to upstate Connecticut, they soon learn that their charming Victorian home has a disturbing history: not only was the house a transformed funeral parlor where inconceivable acts occurred, but the owner's clairvoyant son Jonah served as a demonic messenger, providing a gateway for spiritual entities to crossover.

Now unspeakable terror awaits, when Jonah, the boy who communicated with the powerful dark forces of the supernatural, returns to unleash a new kind of horror on the innocent and unsuspecting family.

he is 14 yrs my senior
he is not romantic
he is not energetic enuff
he is always not listening to me

Y do I love Old Beng

he endures wif my nonsense
he tries to spend time wif me
he put in effort to merge wif my life
he try to ans to all tat i desire

most importantly he love me :)

i recall this conversation ...

"Hey, is he ur bf or or staff?", peeps

wake up this morning frustrated ...

beng say he will come at 9am to help pack my room
i've done most of it on sat so tat we can spend more time 2gether
n 1st home cook meal

FSDD .. think there's no point blogging abt e details
coz he will never see

Y !

coz this blog is not important enuff for him to take down e details when given
m i juz like his guitar lessons, slr, n other of his short lived interest

Honor & Integraly

"Beng, i've set up our blog" , b
"Wah, it look good. I'll go in everyday", beng

1st day monitor .. FAILED

Honor & Integrity

Early June '09.....
"Beng, would u sponsor my cabana boy", b
"Yes baby, but no sex k", beng

About 1 mth later ....
"Beng, u sponsor my cabana boy in Bali rite", b
"no", beng
"Beng, but u agree b4, juz say no sex allow", b
"no, when did i ever say tat?" beng

my heart smashes ....